after a mygroin hit, almost fainting in the middle of the road & wearing sunnies in Maccers Kingsford because i cant stand the light, im back on track!

Thansk for my beloved sister for listening, and to Remie for telling me that things will be a-ok. Also, to Z for layaning me whine and be my favourite pokok when i feel like being a Koala Bear, a back when i want to be a backpack, being Mr Muhammad Panda when i need to hug.

Terima Kasih(intonation: Alley Cats).

Sincerely yours,
Ida Haryani yang kepanasan kerana Sydney sangat panas. Well, need to get used to it! Malaysia is even worst!

My boyfriend is so busy studying now, he got an exam tomorrow. Yeah he spend most of his time listening to ilecture, looking at the computer and do some notes and talk to himself. Of course he use me as his lab rat as well.

macam tadi, he tests me for depression.

Q1 how's ur heart beat, irregulate kan? A1 yeah its true, i can get nervous easily, especially when im on the verge of migrain.

Q2 how's your concentration level? A2 hmm, very poor. u know kannnn.

Q3 intense sadness? A3 yeah. if im sad, i will become angry, cuz i dont want to cry. it makes me feel weak. but then, it will lead to nasty arguments la kan.

Q4 Are you aneroxic? Takkk. A4 u bitch.

i know i can get a little despress especially when im not doing anything. I dont sense any kind of achievement. I feel like im not moving forward, in any area. stagnant. I like to be busy, and squeezing social activities in between, like coffee session with the girls, do some stuff with the boys, and go ice cream & nice breakfast & awesome snack hunting with Z, while walk arms in arms, bitch about stuff, pastu suddenly i merajuk and he needs to comfort me.

Like now, im keeping myself busy so that i wont become a monster to a very kind boy who will have big exams coming up soon.

Have i told you that we have to postpone our anniversary celebration because of examination? Its okkkkkkkk kannn. kannn. kannnnn.